Posts tagged race story
A Lesson in Going Out Too Fast

Raleigh Relays. I look forward to it every year. This year I was going into fit and excited. Maybe too excited. I felt the energy in that first mile. But as the adrenaline faded into lactic acid I crashed hard. Being over confident from a lack of confidence, made yesterday’s 5k feel soul crushing. I have to be where I am and based on workouts leading into this race, that’s not a bad place to be. But I tried to outdo that version of me and I under performed. Read on for my full race recap and all the feels I’m feeling now.

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Bad Races Have Their Place

I lined up for the USATF 15k Championships at the Gate River Run in Jacksonville, FL this past weekend. It was my third time racing and I was sure this year would be different than the rest. My previous two experiences were plagued by my insecurities and I left dissatisfied. I was in a different place this year. I felt ready to race. I planned to go out with the leaders and challenge myself mentally and physically by putting myself in the most uncomfortable place I could be. I don’t like to start to fast. I like to be controlled. So I practiced what I am worst at and went for it. It wasn’t my day but days like this have their place in training cycle. Read on for my full Gate River recap.

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2018 Indianapolis Monumental Marathon

I have spent the last couple of days processing what happened. Trying to figure out how to deal with it. How to move past the experience. How to continue to move towards my goal. How to stay confident. It has been hard. I was ready and capable to run sub 2:45 on Saturday. I was doing it. The marathon is a beast. You can be in the best shape of your life and lose it in the final 5k. Mentally I needed this. I came up a bit short. But I have more opportunity and a team of people to help get me there. Time to keep fighting.

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Grandmas Marathon Race Recap

When the gun goes off, the work is done, the taper is over, and the only thing that stands between you and your goals is your mind and the decisions you make along the way. Sometimes things out of your control will happen, but as is the way with life. It is important to remember that there will always be other opportunities, other challenges, other successes, but also other let downs. When I began 2018 hoping to change my narrative post CIM, I was met with an even bigger obstacle. There was heartache in the pain of uncertainty but bravery in racing when I felt the most vulnerable. I fought my way back to the start line, making the final decision to go ahead and race at the beginning of May. It wasn't easy, it wasn't a PR, but I am so proud of where I ended up.

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Breaking My Silence

With the start of 2017, came the start of much more. I had come to the decision to do something bold. Something I was scared to do. I was worried what people would think. I was worried about how my coworkers would feel. I had feelings of insecurity not knowing if I was making the right decision putting running higher on my list. I felt impulsive and reluctant to change but I had this feeling in my heart that I had to do it. I had to give myself a chance to succeed. But making big decisions don't come easy. They test you. They through everything at you to see how you will respond and I'm finally here to say that I've made it. 

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CNO Financial Indianapolis Monumental Marathon - Debut Recap

Just about 9 months ago, and about 4 days after the trials, I sat in my room at the Yosemite lodge replaying the race over and over in my head. I closed my eyes and all I could see was Figueroa St. and the endless stretch of road ahead. I could still feel the burning in my legs, the tightness in my chest and the pain in my heart. The worst part of all was the constant visions of me stopping. As I sat on the bed of our room staring off into space I turned to my boyfriend and whispered the words “Am I going to be okay?”

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Hall of Fame, Bird Camp, Race. My weekend and how it all ended.

What started as a week marked with stress and a slight mental breakdown ended in a profound way. I had planned to embark on a crazy expedition of driving from Raleigh to Blowing Rock, then back to Apex, then back to Blowing Rock, Blowing Rock to Charlotte, and then flying out to Boston and eventually back to Raleigh, all in 5 days, potentially during a hurricane, and all before a race. This is how it ended...

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Monumental Weekend

I can’t believe how long it has been since I ran the Indianapolis Monumental Half-Marathon and qualified for the Olympic Trials Marathon but I can say I’m still sometimes shocked by it. When I turned the corner coming into the final straight away I could see the time and could not believe what I had done. I was so overjoyed I felt like I could run another! Luckily I remembered how those last 3 miles had started to feel and just stood there in the finish shoot just taking it all in. This is my story of qualifying for the 2016 US Olympic Marathon Trials.

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