Posts in Motivation
My Story of Oiselle

When I joined the Volee in 2014 I didn’t know how much of an impact it would have on me. Through all of the ups and downs this team has kept me focused on continuing to fight for more both in life and in running. I wouldn’t change the path I took to get where I am for anything. If you are interested in Joining the Volee or learning more about my experience read on!

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A Lesson in Going Out Too Fast

Raleigh Relays. I look forward to it every year. This year I was going into fit and excited. Maybe too excited. I felt the energy in that first mile. But as the adrenaline faded into lactic acid I crashed hard. Being over confident from a lack of confidence, made yesterday’s 5k feel soul crushing. I have to be where I am and based on workouts leading into this race, that’s not a bad place to be. But I tried to outdo that version of me and I under performed. Read on for my full race recap and all the feels I’m feeling now.

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Training Update

For the first 4 months of this year I was just going through the motions. Following my training, going to the gym, meeting with my strength coach, and getting PT. I was maintaining everything but it all felt stagnant. In February we tried to dive back into normal training and my body couldn't handle it. I couldn't even make easy runs feel easy. For a while I was just desperately looking for answers which affected me mentally. I went to a doctor who made me feel like everything was in my head. In moments of weakness I believed him and felt like this was it. Maybe this is just where I am now. But, between my functional medicine doctor and my primary care doctor we finally figured it out. I used Jasyoga's Work-IN to stay centered and now here I am. With 3 weeks to go to Grandmas, I know I can do this.

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My Prologue 2018

Everybody has a story. It's just up to you how you tell it. I've had my fare share of disappointments in my running career but I haven't let those times define me, I've chosen to help them shape me. Lets just say my stubbornness has forced me to learn the hard way many times. But now I am on a mission to let go of some of the control, have faith in the process, learn to relax, work hard but recover better, and love who I am and what I have got. I read an article by Allie Kiefer a week or so ago and it resonated with me. I've obsessed over food, feeling bad about the fact that I am not as skinny as most runners. I've felt what she felt and it's kept me from reaching my potential. But that stops now. 2018 is my year to shine. Starting with the events of the last month and my plans for the next year, this is #MyProlouge.

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Recovering from Secondary Amenhorrea. This is My Story.

In writing this post I had a hard time starting. Putting the words down on paper felt awkward and scary. I felt like a fraud. But when I found the courage to post about it a month ago, the response from women dealing with the same thing was bigger than I had expected. Seeing how that post impacted others made me realize that I needed to put myself out there. Hypothalamic Secondary Amenorrhea is more common than most think and that is likely because it is either not discussed or is misunderstood. Runners are wired to think that more is better, but in reality, balance is what runners really need. So here it is, this is my story.

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Breaking My Silence

With the start of 2017, came the start of much more. I had come to the decision to do something bold. Something I was scared to do. I was worried what people would think. I was worried about how my coworkers would feel. I had feelings of insecurity not knowing if I was making the right decision putting running higher on my list. I felt impulsive and reluctant to change but I had this feeling in my heart that I had to do it. I had to give myself a chance to succeed. But making big decisions don't come easy. They test you. They through everything at you to see how you will respond and I'm finally here to say that I've made it. 

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CNO Financial Indianapolis Monumental Marathon - Debut Recap

Just about 9 months ago, and about 4 days after the trials, I sat in my room at the Yosemite lodge replaying the race over and over in my head. I closed my eyes and all I could see was Figueroa St. and the endless stretch of road ahead. I could still feel the burning in my legs, the tightness in my chest and the pain in my heart. The worst part of all was the constant visions of me stopping. As I sat on the bed of our room staring off into space I turned to my boyfriend and whispered the words “Am I going to be okay?”

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Hall of Fame, Bird Camp, Race. My weekend and how it all ended.

What started as a week marked with stress and a slight mental breakdown ended in a profound way. I had planned to embark on a crazy expedition of driving from Raleigh to Blowing Rock, then back to Apex, then back to Blowing Rock, Blowing Rock to Charlotte, and then flying out to Boston and eventually back to Raleigh, all in 5 days, potentially during a hurricane, and all before a race. This is how it ended...

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A Day for the History Books

In 2014 I lost someone very special to me but through his presence watching over me I have gained even more. Even though he wasn’t physically present when I turned my running career around, his influence and life showed me what it means to do what you love and pursue it with every ounce of your being. He coached because he loved it. He helped his players because it meant something to him. He didn’t do it for the fame or fortune but because it was his gift to the world and his passion. I like to think that everyone has a special purpose in life and the goal is to find that purpose and live it out. My grandfather did that. And while he was a humble man, he would have loved to be present on this day. A day that will forever be a special day for my family. 

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